Okay so yesterday actually turned out to be quite lovely. There were flowers, dinner and a nice stroll. I was pleased because the day did end up being special and important after all.
I'm gonna credit the change to possibly one of you out there actually praying for me. Thanks a bunch.
P.S.
Did you get to see me last night on the show? I saw myself a few times. It was crazy to see myself on t.v. I think I'm more of a behind the scenes type of gal.
-Oh yea, so speaking of behind the scenes. I was listening to the bible the other day (yes, listening) and I believe in 2 Kings I heard them make mention to the women that tended the wardrobe....
I thought that was quite fascinating because who would have known that personal stylist were used even back in the biblical days..... All I'm saying is that my people better work it out. There's always something that can be done and in an economy like this, you better get creative with it.
Okay, but that was it. I know this wasn't a planned posting but like I said I wanted to let you know that I'm feeling much better today and I promised I wouldn't come back on here until my spirits were lifted. And since I'm so high today I wanted to uplift you right along with me.
Laterz!
Monday, July 18, 2011
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Late
Man, so it took me awhile to get this post out there because everyday this week was extremely long. It's dated on Sunday because that was actually the day I began writing it but I was wrapped up in love on Sunday so I wasn't able to post according to plan. Do you forgive me? -Of course you do.
Well I came on today just to write. I don't have anything in particular in mind. I heard writing from this point of blankness stirs the mind to some degree of creativity. I guess we're gonna put that to the test right now.
One thing that came to mind from this morning (Saturday) was checking motives. As I was praying I asked that the Lord reveal to me my motives concerning a certain situation in my life. Well maybe situation isn't the best word to use because it's not that serious but....I've started feeling something within me and I want to be sure that before I make a move, I want to know the basis of why I want to go this way. I know myself and I don't want to get in anyone elses space if I'm not there for the proper cause. If I didn't learn anything else from my past; I've learned that much. (smile)
By now I'm sure you're like what in the heck is she talking about but like I said I'm just ranting (in a positive way) about some things going on with me. I know that me checking my motives and evaluating myself is a good place to start because on my end it shows maturity but what if it isn't enough?
I look at my life and I see so many things that I want to change in me and around me but I don't know where to begin. I mean I've done reading, praying, writing and whatever else to get the ball rolling but I don't know.
I also don't know where I'm going with this piece so to avoid wasting anymore of my time and yours I'll stop right here. At least I got to get some stuff off but I have to be mindful of what I put into your space as well. I believe in being each other's keeper. So in a way of showing you guys how much I love you I will watch what I pour into your spirit. With that said, let me shower you with some xoxoxoxoxoxox's and send you on your way.
I do want to say that I'll be back tomorrow for my weekly writing but who knows; it took me a week to get this one out (still forgiven right?) I will say that if we don't come together via blog tomorrow you can join me in watching the episode of SUNDAY BEST that I sat in on. The episode I told you I attended a few months ago airs tomorrow night at 8pm. I will be tuning in to see if I'm briefly seen so let's meet up there if you don't hear from me anytime sooner.
Peace family.
Well I came on today just to write. I don't have anything in particular in mind. I heard writing from this point of blankness stirs the mind to some degree of creativity. I guess we're gonna put that to the test right now.
One thing that came to mind from this morning (Saturday) was checking motives. As I was praying I asked that the Lord reveal to me my motives concerning a certain situation in my life. Well maybe situation isn't the best word to use because it's not that serious but....I've started feeling something within me and I want to be sure that before I make a move, I want to know the basis of why I want to go this way. I know myself and I don't want to get in anyone elses space if I'm not there for the proper cause. If I didn't learn anything else from my past; I've learned that much. (smile)
By now I'm sure you're like what in the heck is she talking about but like I said I'm just ranting (in a positive way) about some things going on with me. I know that me checking my motives and evaluating myself is a good place to start because on my end it shows maturity but what if it isn't enough?
I look at my life and I see so many things that I want to change in me and around me but I don't know where to begin. I mean I've done reading, praying, writing and whatever else to get the ball rolling but I don't know.
I also don't know where I'm going with this piece so to avoid wasting anymore of my time and yours I'll stop right here. At least I got to get some stuff off but I have to be mindful of what I put into your space as well. I believe in being each other's keeper. So in a way of showing you guys how much I love you I will watch what I pour into your spirit. With that said, let me shower you with some xoxoxoxoxoxox's and send you on your way.
I do want to say that I'll be back tomorrow for my weekly writing but who knows; it took me a week to get this one out (still forgiven right?) I will say that if we don't come together via blog tomorrow you can join me in watching the episode of SUNDAY BEST that I sat in on. The episode I told you I attended a few months ago airs tomorrow night at 8pm. I will be tuning in to see if I'm briefly seen so let's meet up there if you don't hear from me anytime sooner.
Peace family.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Updated Naturally
I've heard you and I have returned. Forgive me dear loved ones for posting only once last month but as you can see from the new background I've been doing some creating. I've taken the time last month to develop my arts and what you see behind this post is just a few of the pieces that I have created. I'm still growing my portfolio so that I have enough works under my belt in order to attend next year's Decatur Arts Festival. I haven't forgotten about you that enjoy the fruits of my writings, so I decided to devote Sundays to my blog. Every Sunday I will post a new topic over here and keep in touch with my fellow writers, bloggers, authors and poets.
Today, I wanted to touch on the topic of NATURAL HAIR. I've been natural for almost 3 years and it has been a journey so to say. I have had days where I loved what I was doing and also days that I had no idea what I signed myself up for; today is one of those days.
My hair and the process of being natural is causing me to grow weary. I'm constantly fighting with my roots and disputing with my ends. I feel like my texture and curl pattern is trying to hit me with a K.O. I want to say that I've been winning this battle but I really don't think that would be the most honest statement to make.
If you don't know me personally, I'm the type of person that loves to change up my look. I love to do my do and show off my hair as an accessory. This is the reason that I know dreading or having my hair consistently braided wouldn't work. I'm not ready for that type of commitment. But the fact that I like to be versatile with my looks is beginning to have me to reconsider the "creamy crack."
I know the damage that perms or relaxers do to the hair as well as my body, this is the reason I went natural to begin with, but I wonder if wearing hair in it's natural state is for everyone... I want to say of course it is because this is the way G*d created us, we or shall I say I, wasn't born with relaxed hair. My natural hair isn't relaxed, it's more uptight and difficult if anything (which is probably why it chooses to fight me the way it does.) Nevertheless, this hair is a part of me and it's challenging me to return to true essence.
At the point where I am now, I seriously considering the big chop again. I did my first BC October 2009 after transitioning for a few months prior. I know how dreadful of a time that was because the level of one's creativity can only be stretched but so far when your hair is only an inch long. I'm allowing this idea to take place again because I feel as if I'm growing a field of weeds. Starting fresh may allow me to fall in love again with being NAPTURALLY ME. It will give me another opportunity to remove the damage that has set in and fully nurture my kinks again.
My goal when starting on this path was to obtain healthy, full, natural hair. In the last few months with me turning 30, I've noticed changes in myself physically that has pushed my goal slightly further away. To me, my hair looks dull in color and although it's thick, it's not presenting the fullness I know it can achieve.
I do suggest that if you have been playing with the notion of going natural that you do your research beforehand. Talk to others that you know have made this decision, heck, if you live in the Atlanta area I'm sure you can find someone because I've noticed lots of women are taking part in this epidemic. Find what's comfortable for you and don't choose to go this route because of the looks of someone else. None of us have the same exact hair texture, for me, I have two different types. I say this because one, we aren't to covet what our neighbor has but for two, you will become steadily unhappy because you expect your hair to look like that of another.
I wish you the best of luck if you are reading this prior to your decision and I say stay strong to those like me that are asking themselves the questions that I have regarding their already made decision. Like anything else, there will be good days and bad days, or in our case, good hair days and bad hair days. For you ladies, below is one of my recent paintings done to encourage you with words of advice. I call her 'PICK IT UP and PICK IT OUT.'
Peace family.
Today, I wanted to touch on the topic of NATURAL HAIR. I've been natural for almost 3 years and it has been a journey so to say. I have had days where I loved what I was doing and also days that I had no idea what I signed myself up for; today is one of those days.
My hair and the process of being natural is causing me to grow weary. I'm constantly fighting with my roots and disputing with my ends. I feel like my texture and curl pattern is trying to hit me with a K.O. I want to say that I've been winning this battle but I really don't think that would be the most honest statement to make.
If you don't know me personally, I'm the type of person that loves to change up my look. I love to do my do and show off my hair as an accessory. This is the reason that I know dreading or having my hair consistently braided wouldn't work. I'm not ready for that type of commitment. But the fact that I like to be versatile with my looks is beginning to have me to reconsider the "creamy crack."
I know the damage that perms or relaxers do to the hair as well as my body, this is the reason I went natural to begin with, but I wonder if wearing hair in it's natural state is for everyone... I want to say of course it is because this is the way G*d created us, we or shall I say I, wasn't born with relaxed hair. My natural hair isn't relaxed, it's more uptight and difficult if anything (which is probably why it chooses to fight me the way it does.) Nevertheless, this hair is a part of me and it's challenging me to return to true essence.
At the point where I am now, I seriously considering the big chop again. I did my first BC October 2009 after transitioning for a few months prior. I know how dreadful of a time that was because the level of one's creativity can only be stretched but so far when your hair is only an inch long. I'm allowing this idea to take place again because I feel as if I'm growing a field of weeds. Starting fresh may allow me to fall in love again with being NAPTURALLY ME. It will give me another opportunity to remove the damage that has set in and fully nurture my kinks again.
My goal when starting on this path was to obtain healthy, full, natural hair. In the last few months with me turning 30, I've noticed changes in myself physically that has pushed my goal slightly further away. To me, my hair looks dull in color and although it's thick, it's not presenting the fullness I know it can achieve.
I do suggest that if you have been playing with the notion of going natural that you do your research beforehand. Talk to others that you know have made this decision, heck, if you live in the Atlanta area I'm sure you can find someone because I've noticed lots of women are taking part in this epidemic. Find what's comfortable for you and don't choose to go this route because of the looks of someone else. None of us have the same exact hair texture, for me, I have two different types. I say this because one, we aren't to covet what our neighbor has but for two, you will become steadily unhappy because you expect your hair to look like that of another.
I wish you the best of luck if you are reading this prior to your decision and I say stay strong to those like me that are asking themselves the questions that I have regarding their already made decision. Like anything else, there will be good days and bad days, or in our case, good hair days and bad hair days. For you ladies, below is one of my recent paintings done to encourage you with words of advice. I call her 'PICK IT UP and PICK IT OUT.'
Peace family.
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