Do I ever cross your mind?
Do you ever wish that I would appear
and together we could spend some time?
Do you think of me..
Because often I miss you.
I reminisce of our past and the experiences
that we've been through.
Not every thought is
warm and sweet,
and sometimes I wondered what it'd
be like if we were to never meet.
But the question asked
is clear as day..
Maybe you think of the things I would once say?
Or maybe even the way we would once play?
Do you think back to when I told you
how I valued you as a friend?
When we promised one other
that our love would never end?
Or perhaps you think of me
when you reach for your phone,
somewhere in the back of your mind
you hear the way I used to moan..
the way we used to sweat,
the way you would make me wet..
or was I just that easy for you to forget?
Do you ever think of would it might be like now,
do you contemplate on how,
if we were to have taken it slow,
how much more of each other we would've gotten to know.
Sometimes when I think of you and me,
my heart begins to race rapidly.
A breakout of palpitations and a cold sweat,
from unconsciously holding on to the pain of past regret.
And today I missed you
but you obviously didn't feel the same,
with no one to blame but myself.
Cause when I could have chosen to go right,
I'd followed you left.
So again I ask-- do you think of me,
or are you too proud to chase what is now a memory?
Monday, April 7, 2014
Sunday, April 6, 2014
Saturday, April 5, 2014
Friday, April 4, 2014
Baby girl
To my baby girl,
I haven't yet met you but
you are already the center of my world.
My spirit knows you well,
in your smile and bright eyes is where I dwell.
Baby girl I want you to know that I need you too,
because I become a better person
through maturing and developing for the sake of you.
I experience the life that I never thought I would,
I mean, who would've thought that I'd embrace motherhood..
I fell in love with watching you begin to take form,
and waited patiently for you to make your appearance
so that I could put into practice
these new talents that God has called me to perform.
Yes, baby girl
you are the best of my life,
a true reflection of
what's within me that is good and right.
My gift from God that I named as such,
haven't yet held you in my arms
but in my heart I feel your touch.
You are the ending and start of who I was and who I am,
and though I never thought that I'd experience this kind of love
God always knew you were a part of the plan.
You're sweet and funny for no reason at all,
and I take delight in your little laugh
because you have such a big personality to be so small.
I race home everyday to see you look up at me,
and I am greeted with nothing but the love
and admiration you have for your "Mommy".
I'm praying already that I get it right,
so that I may impart righteousness and truth in you
that leads you to His light.
My assignment is to make sure you have a relationship
with your Father
and that you know Him well,
to teach you His essence
so that you may follow His will.
Dearest baby girl,
as your Mother I encourage you to always be free
to be authentically you,
and I promise today to give you my love
no matter what we may go through.
I haven't yet met you but
you are already the center of my world.
My spirit knows you well,
in your smile and bright eyes is where I dwell.
Baby girl I want you to know that I need you too,
because I become a better person
through maturing and developing for the sake of you.
I experience the life that I never thought I would,
I mean, who would've thought that I'd embrace motherhood..
I fell in love with watching you begin to take form,
and waited patiently for you to make your appearance
so that I could put into practice
these new talents that God has called me to perform.
Yes, baby girl
you are the best of my life,
a true reflection of
what's within me that is good and right.
My gift from God that I named as such,
haven't yet held you in my arms
but in my heart I feel your touch.
You are the ending and start of who I was and who I am,
and though I never thought that I'd experience this kind of love
God always knew you were a part of the plan.
You're sweet and funny for no reason at all,
and I take delight in your little laugh
because you have such a big personality to be so small.
I race home everyday to see you look up at me,
and I am greeted with nothing but the love
and admiration you have for your "Mommy".
I'm praying already that I get it right,
so that I may impart righteousness and truth in you
that leads you to His light.
My assignment is to make sure you have a relationship
with your Father
and that you know Him well,
to teach you His essence
so that you may follow His will.
Dearest baby girl,
as your Mother I encourage you to always be free
to be authentically you,
and I promise today to give you my love
no matter what we may go through.
Thursday, April 3, 2014
Passing me by
Taken straight from a scene
in a movie
he smiled, passed by
and the essence of him
moved me.
Coco caramel complected,
eyes bright and in them
the image of me reflected.
My heart still slightly
defected,
but could he see it?
My prince in pauper's attire,
could he be it?
Better yet my knight in shining
armor,
believing that possibly this
was some of my good karma.
Because the heavens have eyes..
And it's known that God orders
each and every step,
so I bet
that our paths crossing
was of no coincidence at all.
Standing before him was
a young woman with a want,
not a need.
That he was the one chosen
to possess the deed.
...to my heart.
That he the key master would
allow this gatekeeper to play her part.
Gently he knocked and he tapped,
and within a short amount of
time he had me wrapped
up in..
The perfect words spoken
with a charismatic tone,
when he spoke it was as if no
one else existed and we were all
alone.
Taken straight from a scene in a movie,
the essence of him moved me...
But maybe just a little too far.
Because his prose has a purpose
and he's passionate for his passion,
with an unwavering demand on his life
his time he has to ration.
And just like that
I'm another girl who doesn't get the guy,
taken straight from a scene in a movie
where he smiles and continues to pass me by.
in a movie
he smiled, passed by
and the essence of him
moved me.
Coco caramel complected,
eyes bright and in them
the image of me reflected.
My heart still slightly
defected,
but could he see it?
My prince in pauper's attire,
could he be it?
Better yet my knight in shining
armor,
believing that possibly this
was some of my good karma.
Because the heavens have eyes..
And it's known that God orders
each and every step,
so I bet
that our paths crossing
was of no coincidence at all.
Standing before him was
a young woman with a want,
not a need.
That he was the one chosen
to possess the deed.
...to my heart.
That he the key master would
allow this gatekeeper to play her part.
Gently he knocked and he tapped,
and within a short amount of
time he had me wrapped
up in..
The perfect words spoken
with a charismatic tone,
when he spoke it was as if no
one else existed and we were all
alone.
Taken straight from a scene in a movie,
the essence of him moved me...
But maybe just a little too far.
Because his prose has a purpose
and he's passionate for his passion,
with an unwavering demand on his life
his time he has to ration.
And just like that
I'm another girl who doesn't get the guy,
taken straight from a scene in a movie
where he smiles and continues to pass me by.
Wednesday, April 2, 2014
Afraid
I was afraid.
Not that I would fail but that I would succeed,
that I would be forced from my comfort zone
uncomfortably.
That I would get all the things that my heart desired,
and I wouldn't be able to make excuses
of why I could not ignite my own fire.
I was afraid of growth
but I heard the Spirit calling on me.
Constant reminders to not miss
even the smallest opportunity.
I had often thought of walking on water
but I was always too afraid to drown.
So many times before
I have been let down.
And yes,
that was another excuse
to not push on.
Just so I can question the future or stay stuck
in the past
where I had been scorn.
The present was my gift but I was afraid
to open it up,
scared that the effort I put forward
may not have been enough.
So I chose to procrastinate
somehow each and everyday.
In order to avoid stepping aside
and getting out of my own way.
One night I had a dream
and it was oh so clear.
An angel appeared and said the
life I wished for was coming near.
"Be afraid no more,
carry out the purpose
He created you for.
Bless your community and inspire
the world.
Write to enlighten the children
every boy and every girl.
Be afraid no more."
Just do it was his demand.
Then this angel gently
took me by the hand.
He walked me closer to the light
and whispered,
"trust in God and everything
will be alright."
And just before he kissed me upon my head,
the words
"be afraid no more",
once again was quietly said.
Then I arose in the spot
where I had laid,
dropped to my knees and
immediately I prayed.
Thanked Him for the courage and promised
my goals would no longer be delayed,
and it was from that day forward
I lived life no longer afraid.
Not that I would fail but that I would succeed,
that I would be forced from my comfort zone
uncomfortably.
That I would get all the things that my heart desired,
and I wouldn't be able to make excuses
of why I could not ignite my own fire.
I was afraid of growth
but I heard the Spirit calling on me.
Constant reminders to not miss
even the smallest opportunity.
I had often thought of walking on water
but I was always too afraid to drown.
So many times before
I have been let down.
And yes,
that was another excuse
to not push on.
Just so I can question the future or stay stuck
in the past
where I had been scorn.
The present was my gift but I was afraid
to open it up,
scared that the effort I put forward
may not have been enough.
So I chose to procrastinate
somehow each and everyday.
In order to avoid stepping aside
and getting out of my own way.
One night I had a dream
and it was oh so clear.
An angel appeared and said the
life I wished for was coming near.
"Be afraid no more,
carry out the purpose
He created you for.
Bless your community and inspire
the world.
Write to enlighten the children
every boy and every girl.
Be afraid no more."
Just do it was his demand.
Then this angel gently
took me by the hand.
He walked me closer to the light
and whispered,
"trust in God and everything
will be alright."
And just before he kissed me upon my head,
the words
"be afraid no more",
once again was quietly said.
Then I arose in the spot
where I had laid,
dropped to my knees and
immediately I prayed.
Thanked Him for the courage and promised
my goals would no longer be delayed,
and it was from that day forward
I lived life no longer afraid.
Tuesday, April 1, 2014
this girl called LOVE
Today He called me LOVE.
He said that I make up the rules and it's all in my hands.
As shocked as I may have been, He whispered,
"Don't be surprised because you've known it all along. The love you've been craving,
it's who you were born to be My child, and now you are ready."
The greatest love is seeing beyond yourself and other people, it's seeing through them to their soul.
Today He called me LOVE.
Not just a mere sentiment but the truth which holds His law.
He shined His light and said,
"From the darkness you have been delivered so get up and walk."
This is an extraordinary move He has asked me to make but He said I could do it because,
I'm EXTRAordinary and that's nothing new.
The nickname "Infinity" was such a precise choice for me to make because it's who I always was and it reflects His Divine Love which is also infinite and mysterious.
Today He called me LOVE.
So together we wait ahead wanting you all to catch up because we know in the ending there is always love.
With a heart of acceptance, yet still I protested,
"Father isn't love something you feel?"
Quickly He replied,
"No it isn't my child; it's what you become. I watched you at your happiest when I knew you had nothing and during that time you allowed the unknown to cast a new life. You've bravely decided to not cling to the past and I watched you rid yourself of expectations and foolish hopes. You stopped fearing the fear of the unknown, and it's been shown because today I called YOU love. My daughter, life is fleeting and is so impermanent, grasping is vain and clinging is futile but My renewal is forever and now at the same time. Love conforms to OUR vision, and I know you can see it now. You yearned to be 'called out' and so you have, but remember this: love also calls people out so today you are responsible to radiate who you are to others. The gift of who you are isn't just for yourself... GIVE AND RECEIVE... GIVE AND RECEIVE... GIVE AND RECEIVE! My invisible light has shined on the seed that was buried within you."
Today He called me LOVE.
I have a new ability to work miracles so now the minor stuff is casually overlooked. But know this: people won't easily find me (love that is) just because they're lovable.
No!
In order to be found you must promise love because I don't and I won't come automatically, nor am I to be forced because otherwise I wouldn't be love at all, now would I be?
But don't worry because if you unknowingly forget to promise love and are unfortunate to experience me now, you'll have many more chances in the life to come. When you die He has promised to show you the truth immediately. It's an experience of love, knowingness, and bliss because everything that is Him; flows from them.
Today He called me LOVE.
So that I could present one option to you all...
SURRENDER!
Because the person who does is always open and always observing. Surrender not to detach or avoid being touched but so that you can have enough space to find out what is real. Today I have been called love but we are ALL apart of something else. We all belong to ONE unity and that unity is love.
So this is love and today He called me LOVE. So this is ME and I give myself to YOU. ©
He said that I make up the rules and it's all in my hands.
As shocked as I may have been, He whispered,
"Don't be surprised because you've known it all along. The love you've been craving,
it's who you were born to be My child, and now you are ready."
The greatest love is seeing beyond yourself and other people, it's seeing through them to their soul.
Today He called me LOVE.
Not just a mere sentiment but the truth which holds His law.
He shined His light and said,
"From the darkness you have been delivered so get up and walk."
This is an extraordinary move He has asked me to make but He said I could do it because,
I'm EXTRAordinary and that's nothing new.
The nickname "Infinity" was such a precise choice for me to make because it's who I always was and it reflects His Divine Love which is also infinite and mysterious.
Today He called me LOVE.
So together we wait ahead wanting you all to catch up because we know in the ending there is always love.
With a heart of acceptance, yet still I protested,
"Father isn't love something you feel?"
Quickly He replied,
"No it isn't my child; it's what you become. I watched you at your happiest when I knew you had nothing and during that time you allowed the unknown to cast a new life. You've bravely decided to not cling to the past and I watched you rid yourself of expectations and foolish hopes. You stopped fearing the fear of the unknown, and it's been shown because today I called YOU love. My daughter, life is fleeting and is so impermanent, grasping is vain and clinging is futile but My renewal is forever and now at the same time. Love conforms to OUR vision, and I know you can see it now. You yearned to be 'called out' and so you have, but remember this: love also calls people out so today you are responsible to radiate who you are to others. The gift of who you are isn't just for yourself... GIVE AND RECEIVE... GIVE AND RECEIVE... GIVE AND RECEIVE! My invisible light has shined on the seed that was buried within you."
Today He called me LOVE.
I have a new ability to work miracles so now the minor stuff is casually overlooked. But know this: people won't easily find me (love that is) just because they're lovable.
No!
In order to be found you must promise love because I don't and I won't come automatically, nor am I to be forced because otherwise I wouldn't be love at all, now would I be?
But don't worry because if you unknowingly forget to promise love and are unfortunate to experience me now, you'll have many more chances in the life to come. When you die He has promised to show you the truth immediately. It's an experience of love, knowingness, and bliss because everything that is Him; flows from them.
Today He called me LOVE.
So that I could present one option to you all...
SURRENDER!
Because the person who does is always open and always observing. Surrender not to detach or avoid being touched but so that you can have enough space to find out what is real. Today I have been called love but we are ALL apart of something else. We all belong to ONE unity and that unity is love.
So this is love and today He called me LOVE. So this is ME and I give myself to YOU. ©
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